I felt a hand grazed my left shoulder. He dropped by my desk this afternoon to say goodbye. Today was his last day and he had just finished singing up for his clearance. I asked if he already have another company to work for. He said not yet but he’d start looking for one next week.

I noticed he gained some weight.

I smiled and jokingly asked him “O ano magpapainom ka ba?”

He laughed and said, “Baka sa weekend. Nagpaplano sila, text kita pagnatuloy.”

Silence.

“Sige tol dami ka pa yata ginagawa,” I heard him say.

I suddenly realized this might be our last conversation together. I remembered the scene I made at Splash Mountain. I remember him sitting across me and I was rambling stupidly about things that I couldn’t remember and he was there, listening and laughing with me. That I think it was so thoughtful of him.

I tried thinking of things to say… just so he would linger, but I couldn’t.

And that was it.

I just wished I could have known him better.


***

ETS today. Have decided to work overtime on Friday. I discovered recently that I spend more money at home than I do when I’m at work.

Rent VCDs. Pa-merienda, internet, merienda uli. Sigh.

Wala talaga sa bokabularyo ko ang pagtitipid.

But since we have this development action plan to improve our skills for competency going on, I decided to make one for myself and dubbed it as my personal cost control action plan.

.: Pay my credit cards in full, close it down and not getting one again. But since it would take months before I can pay all of it, I decided to cut them in half so that I won’t be tempted to use it. Now, after seeing that cool pair of jeans on my way to lunch I am silently regretting I had done so.

.: Maintain a fixed amount of money on my atm until I could save up certain amount and deposit them in a new account (passbook).

.: Stay away from malls for a given period of time.

.: Save up on my lunch money. Have my lunch at the Insular Bldg. instead of going to Festival mall or ATC everyday.

.: Eliminate unnecessary everyday purchases. This means cutting up hot fudge sundae, chocolates, vanilla coke, potato chips or Auntie Anne’s pretzels after lunch.

This to me was love, love that had no need of words, pleas, arguments, justifications. To love wordlessly, to meet on a level of arcane comprehension, of mysterious communication not visible to others, still serve to me the highest good.

-- Altered States Anita Brookner

Coffee with lots of cream....

Norah Jones in the background....

while working.

Sa wakas, no more bad hair day!

Salamat sa syensya! Bwahahaha!!


***

hums …

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me

Once again, Intools is acting crazy again. Instead of freaking out and mentally banging the keyboard against the monitor, I calmly took a few deep breaths and dialed IT’s local number. That wasn’t so bad now, was it?

***

I recently stumbled upon an interesting blog. Surprisingly, she’s the girlfriend of the blog of a fourteen-year-old lesbian that I’ve been hooked on reading the past few months.

Unlike Ky’s sunny disposition, this one is a rather tempestuous lady with a knack on writing dark poem and stories.


***

A friend has her navel pierced. It’s a sort of declaration -- equating its healing process in parallel with the emotional wounds inflicted by her hubby.

Hmm... I sure hope it's that easy.

Pero cool siya ha in fairness. Hee.

***

I’m sorry if I’m trying to evade your questions. Sometimes it just leaves me off guard and very much uncomfortable. @_@

Archive problems.

***

Was at church kanina.

Peter, you'll probably faint if you read this.

Opo, nagsimba ako.=)

Am thinking of joining the choir again. I just realized I missed going to church. I missed the warm feeling I get everytime I'm in there. I stopped by the blessed sacrament before going home.

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.


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Jazzed Up

After doing my laundry I locked myself up in the bedroom and pulled out my jazz/blues/light and easy cd collection. This is how I spend a nice Saturday morning and relieve all the stress from work. No out-of-town weekend or all that expensive unnecessary stuff for me. Just bring on the music and a good book and I'm more than happy. =)

Here is a random list of my precious collection I got to enjoy this morning that I'd like to share ^_^:

.: The Closer I Get To You - Roberta Flack
.: Tennessee Waltz - Norah Jones
.: Real Love - Paulinho Da Costa
.: Smooth Escape - D’ Sound
.: Nearness of You Norah Jones
.: Your Love Is King - Sade
.: Smooth Operator - Sade
.: The Sweetest Taboo - Sade
.: Don’t Know Why - Norah Jones
.: Painter Song - Norah Jones
.: Stardust - Duke Ellington
.: Manha de Carnaval - Dexter Gordon
.: Cross My Heart - Everything But the Girl
.: Twin Cities - Everything But the Girl
.: Strangers in the Night - Peggy Lee
.: Moon River - Nancy Wilson

…from my Bossa Nova collection – all written by the famous Brazilian composer Antonio Carlos Jobim

.: Vou Te Contar (Wave) - Lilcub
.: Slightly Out Of Tune (Desafinado) – Vera Clouzot (I wish someone would sing this to me *blush*)
.: A Felicidade – Yachines and Miss Lever
.: How Insensitive – Astrud Gilberto

I got the name stardust from a book I was so fascinated with.

Stardust by Neil Gaiman.

It’s your typical old fashion type of fairytale blended with modern cynicism. Very sexy, too. winks

Read it.

I got the name stardust from a book I was so fascinated with.

Paychecks are here!!! Yay!

Ooopss... Down girl.

BILLS!

Oh fuck.

***

Confirmed na. Di na naman kami tuloy nila Marah. Oh well.

I have a new hobby.

Convincing people they’re gay.

Strangely so, I’m unbelievably good at it.


***

Steamy chat with a guy spells out TROUBLE. Must.Not. Succumb.

***

Today’s topic for CPAP was FDIP’s Linkage Program.

***

Received a forwarded message from Marah last night. These past few years we haven’t had any communication whatsoever. Nothing personal, though we were very close in college we just kind of drifted apart since I have my training in a different company added to the fact that once we had this huge cold-war type of fight. Anyway, I texted her back to ask her how she was doing and when would be her wedding day (heard it from a classmate). She answered back saying that it will be next year, and even told me I’m gonna be one of her bridesmaid. I was touch by the thought. Invited her to watch a movie with me along with Thess. She agreed Texted Thess about it, and the date was made.

Now I have yet to confirm it. Someone might back-out.

Tomboy


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Sa sobrang galit ko nakalimutan ko yung birthday niya.

May 1 or May 11?

Aarrgghh!!

Slept late last night.

Eyes still puffy from crying all night.

***

I lie in my bed listening on the soft drizzle beating down the roof, the continuous hum of the fan, the soft lullaby across Paulo’s room and the muffled sound of the television in the living room.

I felt myself drifting from the thin thread of consciousness into the welcoming arms of the subconscious realm, amidst the cacophony of sounds drowning my ears.

THINGS U SHOULD KNOW ABOUT MOI

1. Second eldest child.
2. Easy to please.
3. Book junkie.
4. I’m very nearsighted, close to being blind.
5. I have a very short attention span.
6. I’m afraid of heights.
7. I’m ambidextrous.
8. Short-tempered.
9. Shopaholic.
10. Frequents bars, bookstores and coffee shops.
11. Secretly reads horoscopes.
12. Loves biting and pinching her friends and defining the sadistic acts paglalambing.*
13. Galit sa alak. Pagmeron within her perimeter ang slogan nya eh --- sugod! Ubusin na yan!*
14. Cry baby. Lalo na paglasing!
15. Diva sa videoke!*
16. Occasional flirt.*
17. Maingay*
18. Mahilig sa chocolates. Lalong-lalo na sa white chocolates.
19. I sleep talk.*
20. Am not photogenic.
21. Have a thing with men in uniform :p.
22. Collects scented candles, books, letters, cards and dvds (magccmula pa lang).
23. I’m into pastel and earth colors.
24. Loves dogs.
25. Ultra-sappy. Emotional.
26. Jazz/blues/R&B/alternative fanatic
27. I’m dying to have my own bedroom.
28. Hate boybands and Britney Spears.
29. Get easily turned on with lesbian porno.
30. I love foods that are salty, sweet or spicy.
31. Caffeine addict.
32. Dreams of playing the saxophone like my Dad.
33. Wants to live in Europe.
34. Wants to go to Mardi Gras.
35. Sipunin.*
37. Dreams of putting up an orphanage house.
38. Anime fanatic. Loves Chin-Chan, Sakuragi, Anthony (Candy, Candy), Sailor Moon, Lupin, at marami pang iba.
39. Minsan praning.*
40. Linguist. (i.e. expert sa salitang bakla; conversational ng ilocano and bisaya, fluent sa ingles with English accent --- pag lasing)
41. Have this strange way of holding a pen when writing.*
42. Manipulative bitch* (from a friend’s gf)

*Coming from my friends.
Note: Madadagdagan pa. =)

Don't you see, it really is an extraordinary thing that
you are so afraid to be what you are, because that is
where the beauty lies.
- Krishnamurti

If you want to recall something, pay close attention to it at the time. The problem may not be memory, the problem may be one of attention. People who have a good memory, pay close attention to events as they happen. Also, you may well know that the level of interest and importance we assign to a person or an event, determines how much attention we are going to pay it at the particular time it is occurring.

Hey you. Yes, you. Thank you. ^_^

***

Keep on yawning and stretching during work.

Hang over from my recent Tarlac trip.

Looking forward on my next vacation.

Hello, Mindoro.

***

Wow, just realized how much I missed my little blog space.

***

Went shopping with my sister Lanie last night. Again, I’ve gone overboard and started buying things uncontrollably.

Found this in my e-mail. He he he.

Subject: [qcshs1993] MGA GININTUANG ALAALA

TANDANG TANDA NAMIN NI KUYA ANG SAYA AT LUMBAY SA PODER NILA INAY AT ITAY...LALO NA ANG MGA MAGAGANDANG LESSONS NA NATUTUNAN NAMIN SA KANILA!

1. Si Inay, tinuruan niya ako ng HOW TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"Kung kayong dalawa ay magpapatayan, doon kayo sa labas. Mga punyeta kayo, kalilinis ko lang ng bahay."

2. Natuto ako ng RELIGION kay Itay.
"Kapag yang mantsa di natanggal sa carpet, magdasal ka na!"

3. Si Itay, tinuruan niya kami ni Kuya kung anong ibig sabihin ng TIME TRAVEL.
"Kung di kayo tumigil ng pagngangawa diyan, tatadyakan ko kayo ng todo hanggang umabot kayo sa isang linggo!"

4. Kay Inay ako natuto ng LOGIC.
"Kaya ganyan, dahil sinabi ko."

5. Kay Inay din ako natuto ng MORE LOGIC.
"Kapag ikaw ay nalaglag diyan sa bubong, ako lang magisa ang manonood ng sine."

6. Kay Itay naman natuto ng FORESIGHT si Kuya.
"Siguraduhin mo na lagi kang mag susuot ng malinis na brief, para pag nakascore ka sa syota mo e di kahihiyahiya."

7. Si Inay naman ang nagturo sa akin kung ano ang ibig sahibin ng IRONY.
"Sige ngumalngal ka, kung di bibigyan talaga kita ng iiyakan mo!"

8. Kay Inay ako natuto ng science of OSMOSIS.
"Punyeta, itigil mo ang kadadakdak at tapusin mong kainin ang inihanda kong hapunan para sa iyo."

9. Si Inay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung ano ang CONTORTIONISM.
"Tignan mo nga yan dumi sa likod ng leeg mo, tignan mo?!?"

10. Si Itay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung anong ibig sabihin ng STAMINA.
"Wag kang tatayo diyan hangga't di mo natatapos kainin lahat yan gulay mo!"


11. At si Inay ang nagturo sa amin kung anong ibig sabihin ng WEATHER.
"Alangya, ano ba itong kuwarto nyong magkapatid, parang dinaanan ng bagyo!"


12. CIRCLE OF LIFE, ang paliwanag sa akin ni Inay ay ganito:
"Malandi kang bata ka, iniluwal kita sa mundong ito, maari rin kitang alisin sa mundong ito."

13. Kay Itay ako natuto kung ano ang BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Tatadyakan kita diyan, huwag ka ngang maguumarte diyan ng parang Nanay mo!"

14. Si Inay naman ang nagpaliwanag sa amin kung anong ibig sabihin ng ENVY.
"Maraming mga batang ulila sa magulang, di ba kayo nagpapasalamat at mayroon kayong magulang na tulad namin?."

15. Si Itay naman ang nagturo sa akin ng ANTICIPATION.
"Tangna kang bata ka, hintayin mong makarating tayo sa bahay...."!

16. At si Itay pa rin ang nagturo kay Kuya kung ano ibig sabihin ng RECEIVING.
"Uupakan kita pagdating natin sa bahay....!"

17. Si Inay naman ang nagturo sa aking kung ano ang HUMOR.
"Kapag naputol yang mga paa mo ng pinaglalaruan mong lawn mover, wag na wag kang tatakbo sa akin at lulumpohin kita!"

18. Kay Itay naman natuto si Kuya ng HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"Kung di ka matutong magbati, eh di ka nga tatangkad."

19. Si Inay ang nagturo sa akin kung anong ibig sabihin ng GENETICS.
"Nagmana ka nga talaga sa ama mong walanghiya."

20. Kay Inay din ako natuto ng WISDOM.
"Pag umabot ka na ng edad ko, saka mo pa lang maiintindihan ang lahat."

21. At ang paborito ko sa lahat na natutunan ko kay Inay at Itay ay kung ano ang JUSTICE.
"Isang araw magkakaroon ka rin ng anak, panalangin namin na sana'y matulad sila sa yo... haliparot!"

Somebody told me that I ...

1. am a small petite and extremely pretty girl with high cheekbones. Model like face, on a wireframe body.

2. have a cold touch. My hands are always cold.

3. i smile alot.

4. Its easy to make me smile. I love the "little things" or little joys in life.

5. I am witty and charming. But I dont like the crowd that much. I hate places with too many people you dont know.

6. am intelligent and smart, not usually found in the "pretty gurls" package.

6. am moody. with a big "bitch mode" mood

7. love to argue over little things (in a good way). But sometimes I turn a petty argument into a full blown fight.

8. love siningang na baboy. *grin* and maasim na stuff.

9. have a low threshold of pain and I got a high sense of pride. And would usually defend it even kahit wala nang point.

10. am sweet, so sweet I could melt someone. *tee hee*

11. My eyes are expressive, especially with my gray contacts. Puppy dog eyes? or nasty "i want to eat you" snare.

12. learn easily, but sometimes I have a small sense of focus and always ready to give up at the slight push.

13. argue with people even if they dont have any fault. Pag trip ko trip ko.

14. have a deep dark sexual fantasy. *grin* panglalaki ang dating.

15. easy to fall inlove with. But I always think there's something wrong about myself, in-fact nothing's wrong.

16. am a Good kisser (?)

17. Procastrinator, but if I started on something you want it done agad.

18. Have the penchant for lesbian porno *grin*

19. Loves late afternoons and the beach.

20. am a hopeless romantic, but always denies it.

21. Snort when I laugh. Gasps too. Not a typical gurly laugh.

22. don't like texting.

23. Always wants the latest gadgets at her fingertips (which explains your fone)

It has been a stressful day, I have gone through the RTDs datasheets twice. Admittedly, it is of my own fault since I was so into reading blogs the whole morning that I sort of mispelled words or have forgotten to fill up pertinent process conditions on some tags. Bad Mon!

Plans were being made for our Tarlac trip this Lenten season. Yay! Finally.

****

twonavels (6:44:45 AM): why do I feel so celullarly alone?
liz_stardust (6:45:56 AM): i feel that way too, sometimes
liz_stardust (6:46:33 AM): we rely too much on that thing
twonavels (6:46:34 AM): can blindly continued fear-induced regurgitated life-denying tradition be overcome?

Today is like any other day.

Only I’m having a difficult time concentrating on my work.

I need a real vacation. The kind that lasted for more than a day or even a week, away from work and the city. I haven’t got one in years.

Bonding with my sisters. We were all sprawled on Ate's bed trying out the skin cream that promises to dispel out horniness (hehe…. that's what the label says).

My sister will be graduating next week cumlaude. We are so proud of her. Though it is not really a surprise for us. She has always been an achiever.

New Mantra: Always assume the best in others.

Twenty Questions

Numbers & Feelings

1. How old are you? 22 turning 23 this September
2. How many brothers & sisters do you have? 4 sisters and a brother
3. How many first cousins do you have? Three. Corina, Ate Richelle and Kuya Gilbert.
4. How long have you been in your current relationship? Three years and 7 months
5. How old were you when you had your first girlfriend/boyfriend? 15
6. Approximately how many pairs of shoes do you own? At least 13. The ones I really liked include a pair of ankle boots, loafers, sneakers, and several pairs of sandals. The rest are just lying around in my bedroom rotting.
7. How many rooms are there in your house? 4
8. How long have you lived in your current house? Since the day I was born.
9. How long have you been 'online' (years)? 3 years
10. How long have you worked for your current employer? 2 years
11. What makes you happy? Little things =) I am,generally speaking,a happy person.
12. What makes you sad? little children and really old people begging on the streets, the fact that I feel like my life is almost halfway over and I haven’t accomplish much
13. What makes you angry? Pretentious people, cruelty to animals, racism, prejudice, chronic liars
14. What makes you laugh? my friends make me laugh, silly jokes even the corniest ones, fave comedy sitcoms
15. What makes you cry? physical/emotional pain, sappy movies, heartbreaking novels
16. What makes you feel helpless? whenever a friend cries, fixing electrical stuff at home, and not having enough money to be able to move out and settle on my own
17. What are you passionate about? LIFE
18. What do you worry about? the future
19. What scares you? the dark, drunk man on the street, alleyways, cockroach, fire and earthquakes
20. What makes you feel sick? Rides (rollercoaster, ferriswheel)

Was at Café Lupe last night with Magz and Rx. Only the three of us were able to make it since the others decided to ditch us the last minute. The place was super cool, with its Spanish-inspired interior and of course the garden. We had rosemary chicken roast, sisig and iced tea then beer. Talked non-stop about relationships, sex (or the lack of it), work and other things.

*****

Have finished reading The Cider House Rules the second time. I feel somewhat connected with the characters in it, well, most especially Candy.

Like them, my life has been a series of waiting and seeing.

*****

Unconcious Mutterings

1. Cost :: effective
2. Head :: ache
3. Eclipse :: of the heart
4. Pestacide :: poison
5. Private :: thoughts
6. Betty :: Boop; mom
7. Leech :: most people
8. Jam :: Blueberry
9. Playground:: Swings
10. Trauma:: dark; stage

This guy had a lot of nerve telling me what to do. Note: This guy just texted me last night when a close (?) friend of mine gave him my number.

Him: La ka naman text e hus! Naks kausap m c bosing Ü me tanong ako. Bat ayaw mo sa kanya? Hehe di naman pangit c bosing.
Me: Yup. We chat almost everyday. No, we are just friends. Alam mo naman siguro na merong girlfriend si #^%*& right?
Him: You never liked him? Hanggang dun ba lang ba talaga? Meron kang di alam tungkol sa kanya. Hehe misteryus! Naks!
Me: Ano yun?
Him: Hehehe.. bat ka interesado? Cguro me gusto ka rin sa kanya noh? Waw!
Me: Haha. If I told you what #^%*& and I have, I’ll ran out of load. Ikaw talaga. Me pagka Boy Abunda ka pala e.
Him: bakit naman? Hehe filing close ba ko?
Me: nakahalata ka rin
Him: sensya na
Me: nah, ok lang yun
Him: Basta ang gusto ko lang sabihin wag mo sana i-take 4 granted ang tao na minamahal k ng tahimik. Ilang taon k na nya mahal at hanggang ngayon anjan pa rin sha. D ka naman manhid.

This totally blew me up. He doesn’t even know a frigging thing about me and here he is saying THIS stuff. I replied back.

Me: Hindi ako manhid %@!. And I don’t need people telling me what I should do and shouldn’t be doing. Letme tell u sumthing u don’t pretend that u love someone just because everyone is telling you that he’s the right guy and he has feelings for you since forever. It does not work that way %@, though sometimes I wish it’s just that easy.
Him: Wla ako sinasabi na he’s d right guy. Puta andami na pala kami nagsasabi ni2 sa yo hehe kekebadtrip nga naman

Di ko malaman kung ano gagawin ko. Really. I could not believe that I’m having this conversation with this guy. Didn’t replied back. Apparently, he wasn’t finished sa kanyang panenermon.

Him: d ko dinidiin sayo na mahalin mo din kaibigan ko. Taena impocble yun! Bahala kayo kung san kayo pupunta basta kung me gusto kang itanong tungkol sa kanya tanungin mo lang ako.

Aaarrghhh!!!!!

Me: No thank you I think I have heard enough from you.
Him: Ok

Went running to the CR and let out a muffled scream.

Maligayang Araw ng Kagitingan!

Not really ecstatic about it coz I’m stuck here in the office on a holiday. Buti na lang I have a night out with the girls later. Something to look forward to, eh?

Blah!

Dreamt of vampires last night. Its kinda disconcerting because I know I’m only dreaming, then I force myself to wake up. When I fall back to sleep again the vampire dream continues at the exact scene where it left off.

Hmmm...

*Unconciously checks if there are any vampire bites on my neck*

Blah! Blah!

I want a new layout, or template, or background. I want it done in neon color. Blinding. Outrageous.

Summer. Summer. What summer are you talking about? Walang ganun dito. Trabaho! (Whapak!)

According to experts, alcohol can kill SARS virus. Hee. Mabuhay tayong mga tomador! Ok, I know they’re really not talking about alcoholic drinks but hey, indulge us. My friends and I like to think of it that way.

Things I terribly missed during college:

1. The fire exit. Yep. My official tambayan. Dun namin pinanunood ang paglubog ng araw, heart-to-heart talk sa aking closest friends. Nga pala marami ring milagro nangyayari dito lalo na pagsapit ng gabi. Dami ngang tyanak eh.. Dadi!! Dadi!! LOL.
2. Guardian Office. Kahit amoy gin at pinagpawisang t-shirt and rubber shoes yung opis namin eh panay pa rin ang pagsusumiksik namin dun after class.
3. Canteen. Kikiam. Fishball. Maputlang spaghetti. Malabnaw na palabok. Palamig. Softdrinks. Banana-q. At iba pang nakaka-hepa na pagkain.
4. Locker room. After ng klase dito nagpapalipas ng oras ang mga DICT students. Laro ng chess, scrabble, gawa nga homework, project, written report o kaya naman e matulog.
5. Inuman sa Manukan, Stubbs, at yung mga toxic na karinderya sa labas ng campus.

Check this out. Photos taken from the farewell party for Ruth, Eli, and Zaldy. The unbeatable CITGO team!

Syet. Mukha nakong bangag dito ah. hehe...

Mga kakosa miss ko na kayo! Huhuhuh.. kelan ang inuman uli? Syempre sama nyo ulit si Sir Romar. Para walang humpay ang pagdating ng beer!

****

Wala lang

Bakit ba pag naririnig ko mga kanta ng Linkin Park e naiisip ko si A.? I could actually see him in my head singing the song, for me? Nyek! Di ko naman crush yung tao eh. Ewan. Basta. Trabaho na nga lang ako….

Welcome to my emotional burn ward! Wanna take a tour?

He told me he’d come over to the house last night. And he didn’t. How am I supposed to react? There wasn’t even a text message or a phone call explaining why he couldn’t make it.

Tangina naman. Why can’t I just loose myself from him?

****

Spent the latter part of the afternoon yesterday taking a shot of my fave pics on my cell. Coolness!

Eating lunch alone. I know I have to get used to this setting since most of my contractual friends/schoolmates will be gone by the end of April. I’m missing Ruth already. Sigh.

****

I’m wishing that my Globe sim be activated in less than a week. Is that too much to ask?

Haven’t been blogging. Sorry. Not that somebody’s reading this blasted blog anyway but I feel the need to apologize to myself for not being consistent as I planned to be. Thoughts (if there really is any) are lost, just like a storm ripping away everything that crosses its way; leaving it empty, barren and completely forgotten.

****

The purple box festooned with little flowers I bought last Sunday now housed old letters and cards I have collected since grade school. I have such fun re-reading letters my friends gave me. I remembered back in high school me and my friends used to write sweet thoughts to each other everyday. It has become a ritual really. You could see the whole class scribbling on their papemelroti or scented stationeries in between classes. There were also cards given to me from people I don’t remember anymore (pls. forgive me). Found the birthday cards from Mom. Cried while reading it… Was surprised when I dug up a pale blue envelope containing the dried roses I got during valentines, birthdays and intramurals, thought I have lost it years ago.

Nowadays, no one seems to write letters anymore. Either you get a text message, e-mail or an electronic card. Don’t get me wrong here, it’s nice to have someone text or e-mail me – it’s just that letters are an entirely different thing. Parang orange juice na nasa tetra pack and freshly squeezed orange juice. Hehe. Anyway, I digress. After an hour of re-reading and stacking old letters, piles of junks that I refuse to throw out, I realize I have to buy several boxes more for photos (dami na palang nakakalat lang sa cabinet ko), class cards and report cards, and other stuffs (movie tickets sa dates, tags ng clothes, registration cards, bookmarks with dedications and poems hurriedly written on pieces of papers) to put into. The notebook/journal that I’m using to scribble text messages from friends and Bart is running out so I have to buy another one, too. Gawa kaya ako ng scrapbook? Pede!