… Why do you seek all the negative things in me?…

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This totally made sense….


you: hm..
you: so tell me more about this guy you're seeing
liz_stardust: may pagka bad boy
liz_stardust: maloko
you: your type
you: hee hee
liz_stardust: you think?
you: yun lang?
liz_stardust: yun nga he's 28 project engineer
liz_stardust: what do u want to know pa?
liz_stardust: tanong ka na lang tapos sagot ko
you: he's old
you: uhm.. what do you like about him?
liz_stardust: he's funny, he's exciting
liz_stardust: he's cute
liz_stardust: he's dangerous
you: dangerous? in a sense?
liz_stardust: in a sense that he can break someone's heart and not be bothered by it
liz_stardust: dami pa eh
liz_stardust: i couldn't figure him out
liz_stardust: kaloka
you: ah..
you: now that explains your entry
you: and why you like him
liz_stardust: so what dou u think?
you: his unpredictability excites you.
you: (and frustrates you at the sa
liz_stardust: totally
you: hm..
you: how are things weighed between the two of you?
liz_stardust: what do you think?
you: hm..
you: nevermind the question
you: if you want to know the answer
you: to your question..
you: (as mushy as this is.. but it works)
you: try looking into his eyes and just stop there.
you: the first thing that comes up into your head.. would be the right answer.
you: i say, i believe in the magic of two people.. the connection without words.
you: (but do consider that most of the time its just one-way.. its a bigger kaboom if its mutual)
you: getting to know him better would eliminate doubt.. but wouldnt likely mean that you'll get closer to the truth
you: im not making sense am i?
liz_stardust: no. natumbok mo nga eh
liz_stardust: what if the answer was not the one i'm expecting
liz_stardust: ?
you: thats the problem.. you're expecting an answer.. and most of the time we try to distort reality and do with our expectations instead.. which leads to stumbles or an eventual emotional downfall
you: remember that answers are not always in our favor..
you: if you learn not to expect, then you will see what you're seeking more clearly.. and it will just hit you.
you: if you really enjoy his company then.. give yourself the chance to know him better.
liz_stardust: ok
liz_stardust: thanks keech
you: you're welcome..
you: i hope i made sense..
liz_stardust: yeah you did
you: you really like him huh..?
you:
liz_stardust: i like him.. for now
liz_stardust: siguro after the kilig wala na
liz_stardust: i dunno
you: oh so.. there would be a chance that you'll like other people in the near future
liz_stardust: iyeah
liz_stardust: sana nga
liz_stardust: im in lust lang to hehe
liz_stardust:
you: *laff*
you: give yourself time to breathe
you: then try the waters again.
you: who knows..
liz_stardust: my gosh keech u say the right words ha
liz_stardust: para ko me shrink
liz_stardust: na libre
liz_stardust: :)
you: *laff*
you: dont patronize me
liz_stardust: hindi nga :)


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i need to stay away from him. heaven help me...